December 10, 2013
I am here and she is not. Time flows and I stay here. I have nothing special to do and I have no plans. I have how many years, months or days to live? I don't know. Things just happen. I have nobody to call. I am alone. Heesun's place in my life was too large and nothing can fill the void caused by her absence. And I feel so lonely and purposeless. Aimless. Time flows. I am here. But who is that 'I'? I just spend a little money on games because I don't have big money to move to a tropical island and forget about all the shits that happened to me so far. I am stuck in this dull and cruel life. Maybe I am making this life even more pathetic than it has to be. Maybe I know nothing about anything at all.