I stopped doing things
I stopped doing things. I don't write for my several blogs anymore. I don't make plans for making money and getting out of debts so that I can be free from the work life. I don't look at my wife's photos as often as before. I still visit my wife's grave at least once a month. She does not come to me in my dreams. As a matter of fact, I rarely dream these days. I broke my left ribs. I got my right ankle hurt. All because of a stupid mistake I made one month ago. My life is empty. No future. No past. No woman in my life. No one to touch and kiss. No one to kiss me and touch me. I am more of a tactile person than I thought. I need warm skin and caress. I need a woman's face smiling at me. A sweet smile and voice. I need things like that and I doubt they will come into my life again.