God, are you there?

Wife was hospitalized again for a pulmonary disease that doctors here cannot identify in spite of several tests. She will go through tissue test tomorrow evening.

Ironically, she is getting worse than before coming to the hospital due to unsucessful tests. Not knowing how long she has to live as MRI is on September 11, I really want to avoid tests for her. But doctors fail to make life easier for me and my wife.

Staying in the hospital from this Tuesday, I read Dawkin's God Delusion. The message of the book is gloomy but truthful. There is no God in the heaven that will hear a prayer made by one person in this planet among the vast universe.

I only believe in chance. Prayers, tears, crying out loud to the sky will not save my wife. Only probability, chance, and factors beyond my understanding will make a miracle.

In a word, a great lottery of life will save her. I pray to the God of chance.

Comments

  1. UnknownSeptember 1, 2009 at 12:53 PM

    Here's a couple of suggestions, brought on by a "chance" finding of your blog. :-)

    Check out my website:

    http://www.TreatingGlioblastoma.com

    as well as the website of Irfan Alvi:

    http://www.Brain-Treatments.net

    There are many ways to treat a GBM, and many reasons to have hope if you're willing to think outside the box and take some risks. If you stick to "standard treatment", the only thing we know for sure is that the patient will probably die in 14 months, on average. So I encourage you take some risks and try to learn more about other evidence-based ways you can treat gliomas. I'm more than happy to help! Cheers, John

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  2. Sunny LeeSeptember 21, 2009 at 4:07 PM

    Dear John,

    Thank you very much for the valuable links. I am reading right now.

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