One year after

I realize that it is impossible for human to keep fixating over an idea for ever. For me, the most haunting idea for the last twelve months was that Heesun has left me for good at least in this life.

As days go by, it’s becoming less often that I remember all the painful memories of Heesun losing her mind and bodily functions and my miserable feelings watching her slowly dying. Those memories will not leave forever, I know. I will always look at my empty bed at night where she and I would make love. But I am becoming rather insensitive than before and getting used to the reality that now it’s only me in this world.