one day at a time

Think about the time I have to spend alone until I die. Then, things get hard to bear. I need to focus on small things that need to be done. Things that can occupy my mind and help me pass each day.
I need to live like an animal as an embodiment of the present as seen by Schopenhauer. Like a dog happy with its bone in his paws.

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