My wife heesun died on May 2nd, 2012 at 12:05 pm. My attempt to cure her of glioblastoma was a big fat failure. Or I might say, I had a success in prolonging her life up to 34 months with unsuccessful surgery, interrupted chemo and radiation and numerous supplements. But her quality of life during the last 20 months was so bad that I hesitate to call what we had a success. Anyway, now is the time for me to move on just like my wife did.
Since my wife died, I turned my focus on to different topics. They are near-death experience and quantum physics. I want to understand the reality behind what happened to us and what she would have from the moment she left me. One recent realization that I had is time may not flow and all the past moments simply exist forever as they were in the time-space continuum in the universe. That means I can still love my wife in the past because she still exists in the frozen "presents" that are scattered in the whole continuum.
Since my wife died, I turned my focus on to different topics. They are near-death experience and quantum physics. I want to understand the reality behind what happened to us and what she would have from the moment she left me. One recent realization that I had is time may not flow and all the past moments simply exist forever as they were in the time-space continuum in the universe. That means I can still love my wife in the past because she still exists in the frozen "presents" that are scattered in the whole continuum.
Sunny - This is Sven...you recently posted regarding you and your late wife's long battle with brain cancer. I'm so sorry for all the pain you both went through. There is hope for your grief...please contact me. Sven
ReplyDeleteHi. Sven.
DeleteThank you for the message and kinds words for me and my wife. I am not sure if the word 'hope' would have any use for me until I die as long as the hope is about restoring what I lost.
I listened to the audio book of "Grief observed" by C.S. Lewis. Just like you said, the book was better than other books about grief. I could relate to lots of what Lewis said about his feelings and thoughts about death of loved one. Thank you for recommending the book in your blog.
I reply to your comment as I could not find email address on your blog.
Take care of yourself.
Warm regards
Sunny
Sunny,
DeleteI am thinking if you and hope you are finding some peace It's a hard road. Please email me directly at russulta@gmail.com
Russ